One of my favorite movies is the Disney movie Inside Out. For those that haven't seen this movie, it's about how our emotions are a real part of who we are and how our memories and the people around us intertwine with their emotions. There are times that the emotion "Happy" is in charge of our control wheel and there are times when other emotions are in control. I have come to realize that "Fear" has been a part of my control wheel for longer than I want to admit.
Fear is one of the those complex emotions that make us either freeze, fight, or flight in dangerous situations. Sometimes my fears are the result of things I understand. For example, I am deeply afraid of birds (I know weird fear) but I can pinpoint why. I have been attacked by a duck, been chased by pigeons, and been in a losing battle with a seagull over food. Other fears I can't pinpoint--why I become afraid, why I fear change, why I ask for help, why I put up walls between myself and others. It's something that I have found myself praying a lot about during this season of lent. Why am I letting fear be my first emotion when it doesn't need to be?
Anxiety and nervousness are always going to be key emotions with which I need to deal. And, it is going to be a struggle to deal with them as I continue to grow from in my life's journey. It isn't however going to be something that I let define me and change how I live my life. That may be easy to write down and to think about but it needs to be something that I pray for constantly. I know that I am not doing it alone and this brings me joy and hope. I know that God has plans for me and I know that he is always right beside me giving me strength.
I am constantly in awe of our youth for the determination, work ethic, passion, and heart that they have for everything they do. It brings me much joy for just being in their presence where I can feel their heart, faith, and talents--attributes they have for making the world shine. They remind me that together we are more courageous and together we have greater strength. There is nothing that fear can stop us from achieving as long as we have God by our side and have each other to encourage us in the journey.